⭐️Happy International dance day!! Dance is not just a hobby but a lifestyle, this is something I realised more than ever when injuring my back. Words cannot describe how thankful I am to finally be healed and able to dance again. I know it won’t be easy but it will be worth it. Dance is what I want to do and so I will <33
I feel like this week has been going on FOREVER. Oh my god. I was a 100% sure it was Thursday yesterday and now Wednesday has nearly come to an end??
My day started with a national exam in Swedish, writing comprehension, for 2 hours. I think and hope it went well. We have the third and last part on Friday and then there are the English ones next week. For business class today we pitched our business ideas for upcoming work and my afternoon was spent DYING (cause of death=cold) watching another hemserien- game in football, OUTSIDE.
The weather has been crazy lately. We woke up to a shining sun and singing birds, to next minute face the fears of SNOW, followed by RAIN and later on even sun again. Right now it is freezing cold and a little rain but not too much. Luckily.
Another exciting happening today was the elections for hemråd at all the homes. We now have a new prefekt, vice prefekt, fritidsförman and two new helping hands.
I finish school crazy early tomorrow, around 1.20pm. For someone that is used to days ending at six, this is insane. I will obviously use all my free time for working out. I am happy to see how hard work actually gives results and I can feel my body getting stronger, seeing improvements in ballet as well.
I got asked this questions two days ago. What do I miss the most about ballet?
Well. What don’t I miss?
Being in the position I am in now, doesn’t only make me realise how truly committed to dance I actually am. It makes me realise that I will do everything to become the possible best I can ever be.
I miss warming up with my friends in the studio, hours before the actual class. I miss the happiness coming from managing something you struggled with in the past. I miss having endless rehearsals and legs that were more than dead, coming home from ballet at night. I miss being surrounded by dancers. I miss the early mornings and late nights spent in the studio. I miss having photo shoots. I even miss contemporary which may come as a surprise for people who really know me.
So for you asking what I miss; I miss everything. And a bit more than that.
Somehow these type of questions always go back to one thing. Why do I dance?
I think I dance not only because I cannot see myself doing anything else, but because the dance chose me. Or did I chose the dance? Not really. Ever since I saw this dance performance by the royal Swedish ballet school in third class, I’ve been stuck. My mindset hasn’t always been with the goal to become a ballet dancer, since I was too young then to know what I really wanted in life. But as the years passed by, the bigger part in my life the ballet took. Until I realised that I could not longer see a future without the dance.
And not just dance as something you do several hours a week, but dance as your life. Not a hobby but a lifestyle.
To see your body as a tool which you work with, hard work but surely taking care as well. Otherwise injuries will come as signs of too hard work (cough, cough) you might even break something ..
Oh well, in order to improve in dance- hard work is not just something optional, it is what you need to do, all day everyday- for years. You need to get in the studio with determination, leaving with satisfaction. No excuses. That is what I love to do.
That’s why I dance.